the world would be happier with me dead in it
By Victoria Trott.
i feel sad
i like comfort so much
i keep seeing myself talking to my dad
about like, jesus or something
or being uncomfortable of mr. sheikh
and acting all civilised
to avoid discomfort
i won’t ever be able to do anything or realize life is meaningless
i’ll just be a bullshit person
like everyone who made me in my family
i’m gonna be a bullshit person
an asshole
i do not want this to happen
i already am an assshit bullhole
fuck
i can’t even use concrete images
blue flower
dyed industrially
that was not connected to anything
it was an image
a cliche image
fuck
i’m a bullhole cliche
assshit
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
victoria trott would rather be a mouse than a person. she likes to read books and eat raw almond butter with grapes until her stomach feels swollen.
First published in 3:AM Magazine: Friday, May 9th, 2008.
